Hey first post since like warped '07. I deleted those however. Anywho, today kinda sucked. The grapes at my school are sour. Actually some gay drama started and it was odd because something like that hasnt happened since i was freakin 11. But whatever. Apparently I suck and joke around too much. Maybe I went a little far with the joking but come on, can we be adults about this? I was joking around WITH OTHER PEOPLE as in IN A GROUP but i was the one whose name was brought up the most. Honestly, I never meant to hurt anyone. I mean this is coming from me, someone who feels really guilty after killing a bug, (even though I hate bugs). Plus they're my friends. No more drama. Drama is for 12 year olds.

Anyway, I was also upset today because I just found out my grandfather only has a month to live. That means no Chrsitmas which really upsets me. My mom's parents are basically my second parents and I love them the same as I love my parents. Im really close with him and have always been so this is going to be really hard. My other grandfather died a year ago and honestly, i felt nothing. I was sad for my dad and that was all. My dad's father picked favorites. He had many grandchildren but he chose who he liked the best and it was beyond obvious. So on top of the first 'drama' bit i've had in 4 years, I was thinking about my grandfather.

But I didnt tell anyone because I dont tell people my feelings (even though I can online).